Rebuilding journal search again

Jun. 30th, 2025 03:18 pm
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We're having to rebuild the search server again (previously, previously). It will take a few days to reindex all the content.

Meanwhile search services should be running, but probably returning no results or incomplete results for most queries.

The Accusation

Jun. 29th, 2025 08:33 pm
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In Traitors/Werewolf/Mafia/Your reference here - when people come together and make this sort of accusation, the person selected is exiled from the community.

I decided not to go that far with this. :)

But also decided to "out" them to the public. Because if they are in fact the Killer, people need to know!!!

I can give you the following information:

There were 13 different suspects receiving votes. 3 of them were 1 vote shy of tying. The rest were 2 votes shy of that mark. Which makes sense. People are gathering information and playing hunches, in hopes of stopping the murder spree in it's infancy.

The group has named [personal profile] roina_arwen  as the prime suspect!

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We will have to wait and see if there are any more poisonings this week, or if the angry mob of Idolers got it right the first time!






Vote - Week 2

Jun. 29th, 2025 08:01 pm
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A few words from [personal profile] clauderainsrm:

On one hand, there are quite a few “byes” this week, which is bad. But on the other, that means there is more time for you to read and enjoy those entries that DID make it in on time!

So make sure to read, comment and vote for your favorites, to keep encouraging them on this journey of sheer terror!

Speaking of sheer terror, [personal profile] erulissedances decided to leave the manor before the vote. Which - one, sad for me that I lose one more person to torture, and bad for the rest of you because I asked the wheel if it would count as one of the eliminated numbers. (Standard Idol policy is that it *would NOT*, however this time the Wheel rules. So I asked)

Which means there are also (spins the wheel, watches as it slows to its final destination) 2 contestants with the fewest votes leaving us this week as well! (Don’t forget, the contestant with the fewest votes WHO IS NOT ELIMINATED will be receiving the Nullifier!


The poll closes Thursday July 3rd at 8pm ET.

Good luck to everyone!



Poll #33302 ’WheelofChaos-Week2’
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 19

Vote For Your Favorites!

adoptedwriter's entry
2 (10.5%)

adore's entry
5 (26.3%)

alycewilson's entry
7 (36.8%)

autumn_wind's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

bleodswean's entry
7 (36.8%)

drippedonpaper's entry
2 (10.5%)

eeyore_grrl's entry
8 (42.1%)

fausts_dream's entry
4 (21.1%)

flipflop_diva's entry
10 (52.6%)

garnigal's entry
2 (10.5%)

gunwithoutmusic's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

hafnia's entry
5 (26.3%)

halfshellvenus's entry
6 (31.6%)

i0ne's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

impoetry's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

inkstainedfingertips's entry
4 (21.1%)

kizzy's entry
5 (26.3%)

krispykritter's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
1 (5.3%)

legalpad819's entry
5 (26.3%)

marjorica's entry
4 (21.1%)

matsushima's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

muchtooarrogant's entry
7 (36.8%)

murielle's entry
4 (21.1%)

oxymoron67's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

rayaso's entry
6 (31.6%)

roina_arwen's entry
5 (26.3%)

serpentinejacaranda's entry
3 (15.8%)

simplyn2deep's entry
7 (36.8%)

static_abyss's entry
6 (31.6%)

swirlsofpurple's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

talonkarrde's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

tonithegreat's entry
4 (21.1%)

used_songs's entry
3 (15.8%)

wolfden's entry
6 (31.6%)

xeena's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
2 (10.5%)

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If it’s any …
 
It isn’t.
 
I just thought …
 
Don’t. Your thoughts are. Hesitation. Rudimentary. But sincere. I recognize that.
 
Well. For most …
 
Stop. Please. I’m not most.
 
Silence, broken then with. 
 
There is no comfort, no consolation, you see? There is only a letting go. My releasing. Mine. It is a great sluicing of water from off the skin when surfacing out of the depths. A leprosy in which the body sheds its recognizable humanity. Akin to fire, flooding, all the great equalizers of the human spirit is loss. 
 
No pain can be endless.
 
Time lessens, nothing heals. Perhaps the final loss, the dissolution of self. There is that momentary pause in which the soul tells the self rest rest rest now. With those strange urgent shushings the mind exhales and closes an interior eye and the soul sighs and the body relaxes. 
 
Always with the most extreme of analogies.
 
It’s how I process. How I’m formed. The shape of me in this incarnation is allegorical. I admit it. Is it unbearable of me to explain a poetic inclination? 
 
Of course not. 
 
Catch me in one of those expirations then. That numbing prelude to a sleep brought on by the physical and existential exhaustion of the quivering small beast caught in the snare incapable of the final severing of the trapped limb. Perhaps, between respirations I will show gratitude for whatever platitude you long to utter. With such kindness in the dulcet tones of your compassion. 
 
So insulting. But I forgive you.
 
It is no kindness to me. I’m admitting this to you now so that there can be no misunderstanding between us afterwards. In the quiet of acceptance, in the weaking of the bleeding out. You offered me not a ligature, not even a bandage, only the word bandage. Followed by an expectation of a deed done well. Yet, I will nod and listen insomuch as I am able before the next suck breath moment in which I am once again filled with not a gain but a loss. Filled with loss, if you can imagine such a thing. You who have been unlucky to suffer not. Yes, I say unlucky, yes, I call you cursed for your wholeness, your innocence of these mortal woundings, of the soul’s agonies. 
 
And you, I suppose, are blessed by this devastation?
 
Confounded and cast out by the privilege of cataclysmic injury yet I finger the beads and whisper the prayers and allow my eyes to roll back in their sockets from the sheer unknowingness of meaning, the definition of absolutes. Our mother, our father. All these soulful beings arting in their heavens. There is a consecration in catastrophe. 
 
I disagree. You are martyring yourself to this.
 
Martyr? Laughing. This laying on of hands while the blade is hidden in the sleeve, dropped into the palm, the knife snicking out plunging into the heart between the ribs through the lungs a great sucking sound when its pulled back out. Taking life itself with it. The body heartbeating to death through the collapsing arteries.
 
All this because I wanted nothing more than to offer succor.
 
Are you familiar with the consolation prize, my friend? 
 
Certainly, narrowly failing to win.
 
No, finishing last. 
 
Yet recognized! 
 
I don’t want to be recognized for my wounding. Your sympathy is of no value to me. Only to you. So, in an earnest effort to be brotherlike, to recognize that you too will one day bleed, I bite my tongue at refusing your solace. Give it here. In great bucketloads. Pour it out and over me. I’ll hold my breath to keep from drowning in your mollification. It offers some respite, admittedly, to others. 
 
It’s that you can’t bear to be likened to others.
 
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Shortcomings
Idol Wheel Of Chaos | Week 2 | 1738 words
If It's Any Consolation

x-x-x-x-x

Derg was a dwarf, one of the last of his kind in the Regent's kingdom. He lived in a damp cave deep inside the Blighted Hills, where he wove moss into clothing and practiced the art of metalworking.

There were no other dwarfs in the Hills or nearby villages, so Derg lived alone, which he did not like. Something else he did not like was being mistaken for a troll. Every week, when Derg went to market, he watched the kingdom's other residents back away as he passed by, every one of them leery of being forced to solve riddles. I'm nothing like a troll! he thought. Do they even look past the beard?

Little did they know that Derg also hated riddles. Riddles were tricksy, and they made him feel stupid. And short. Somehow, they always made him feel short.

Read more... )

If you enjoyed this story, please vote for it along with any of your other favorites here!

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Author's Note: This is a Cento (a collage poem), which is a poetic form composed entirely of lines from poems by other poets. I only use one line per author and have given them credit at the bottom, in the order that their line appears here. The only change I make is to add or delete a comma or period at the end of a line where needed, to help my poem flow in the manner that I need it to. Enjoy!


If It's Any Consolation...

I was not aware of the moment when
Forever ends. Never a moment holds
before a casket with a princess motif.
Having found the water behind a thousand mirages,
A stream went voiceless by, still deadened more
In your lifetime. A rush
to come and sit on a torn old abandoned chair
and sailing in the graying zenith of woe,
where the sleepless claim the stars talk.

He pushes on with right good will,
Patting goodbye, doubtless they told the lad
those final hours she couldn't speak,
but no one really expects us to solve anything
and here there is sleeping a buxom young girl
A spirit, though with human eyes,
your daughter's likeness must now remain.
For now, for guilty, for guiltless, no matter, the world offers neither
when she offered me as consolation.


(c) LJB 2025
=-=-=-=-=-=

Stanza one credits: Rabindranath Tagore; Ishion Hutchinson; Kim Addonizio; Khaled Mattawa; John Keats; Katharine Coles; P. K.; Garrett Hongo; Chad Davidson.

Stanza two credits: Robert Louis Stevenson; Wilfred Owen; Michael Ryan; John Surowiecki; Johannes V. Jensen; George Parsons Lathrop; Richard Howard; Jeffrey Schultz; Hélder Faife.
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 I'm not going into detail right now, but let's just say this has been one of the worst weeks of my life. (so far) Sometimes that's the way the wheel spins.  I will say thought that it started Wednesday night after the poll closed, so I'm really glad I had everything written out and ready to go, otherwise none of those other posts would have been made. Far too much chaos!!  Like I said, sometimes the wheel is like that. 

Hope all of you are doing better than that. 

The deadline for the prompt is TOMORROW night: therealljidol.dreamwidth.org/1186386.html



The
re are quite a few of you who haven't finished yet. So hopefully you are get it ready to post! 

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Oh yeah, the first antidote has been distributed to the person with the most votes, and has been distributed to her choice. I guess we will see in a few weeks if that was correct. 

IN THE MEANTIME - I need ALL OF YOU to send me an email clauderainsrm@gmail.com  and make your first accusation on the identity of the Killers. (One name please) If the majority guesses correctly, you out them and end their deadly spree! If not, well, then the killings continue... 
The deadline to do this is the same as the entry deadline   Hopefully in the coming weeks I will be a little less stressed and more organized. I apologize for that. 

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What ELSE are you doing this weekend? 

Reversion

Jun. 28th, 2025 02:55 am
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LJI Week 2: If it’s any consolation
Ben had never imagined himself as someone who could foretell the future, and yet, as Ellen moved around their bedroom packing, a certainty grew within him that he was watching the end of his marriage. The piles of clothing she kept adding to her suitcase, the stack of books she crammed into her travel bag ... Would there be anything left in the closet by the time she finished?

Read more... )

Week 2: Consolation

Jun. 27th, 2025 09:31 am
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Two days after Christmas he was born. Flawless and beautiful. All was calm; all was bright.

 

Two days after that, his parents and big sister brought him home. He looked like Papaw. Maybe it was just the bald head, but he sure was cute in that red plaid zip-up onesie that made him look like a miniature, hairless mountain man with big eyes and tiny, pink feet.

 

Two weeks later he looked like his mom, especially when he turned his head to one side and blinked during “Tummy-time.” He also had het chunky little forearms; “Popeye arms”, as we used to say.

 

At two months he was holding his head up and looking around. He liked the feel of a kitty brushing up against his skin and the warm, comfortable feeling in his belly after a six-ounce bottle of “baby drink.” Time both crept slowly during those sleep-interrupted days and nights but also flew by in a blur of diapers, baths, well-baby checkups and outfit changes.

 

Today he is two-and-a-half. How did he go from rolling and army crawling across the carpet to mastering playground climbers and slides? How did he go from coos and gurgles to “I wanna pah-sick-o, peeze” as he leads me to the freezer door? He doesn’t toddle; he struts. He sports his Bass Pro Shops ball cap and his little camo Crocs like his dad wears, but still wants night kisses and his stuffed dog and bull dozer blanket for sleeps. He loves his orange “ba-kee-ball” and dancing to Jimmy Buffet’s Volcano song. 

 

When he sees me he says, “Hey broh!” and gigges. He’s a funny little man.

 

My youngest grandchild is growing up fast. We are building memories and taking photos and videos to preserve all the moments. He may be the last baby in the (immediate) family for a long time, but for now he is still our cuddle-bug-buddy-boy with big blue eyes and a bowl haircut. If he falls down and cries, I console him. When he’s learning his colors, I celebrate him. If he needs a random hug, I embrace him. 

I love this kid!

Prompt - Week 2

Jun. 25th, 2025 07:22 pm
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 It's the second week of The Wheel of Chaos. 

I have the master list of unused prompts ready.  The Wheel has told me it is ready to spin. 

This week's prompt is 

If it’s any consolation


The deadline to link your entries back to this thread is Sunday June 29th at 7pm ET.

Have fun!

Twist Reveal - Week 2

Jun. 25th, 2025 06:45 pm
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 The Wheel has spoken. 

The first question was "Twist or No Twist" and the wheel once again landed on TWIST! 

Then the wheel went off spinning again to determine which twist it was going to be. 

This could be an interesting one to see how it plays out. 

The contestant with the FEWEST votes in Week 2, without being eliminated, will be granted the Nullifier

This gives them the power to nullify either an elimination (used within 12 hours of when the poll ends)  OR a twist (used before the poll with that twist ends). 

This power is good until the Top 5. 

(Note: The Nullifer has no effect on poison or removing Killers from the game) 


Results - Week 1

Jun. 25th, 2025 08:14 pm
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 The wheel has claimed its first victim. 

Goodbye to [personal profile] vik_thor 

At this point, he is our Francesca! 
 
Losing someone is always difficult, and the longer we go, the more difficult it becomes.  The one positive this time around is that the wheel is fickle and there is no telling when it will allow people to return. 


Thank you for coming out, and I hope we will continue to see you around to root for your favorites!

June 25, 1955

Jun. 25th, 2025 07:30 pm
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Today would be my parents’ 70th wedding anniversary had things worked out differently. I feel a little fcked up now.  Maybe not. Mexican food helps. 
The Mothership has a serious bone infection in her left foot. Its not good, but as my daughter, Fuzzy1, says, “She's bulletproof “. Who knows?  This night just be another situation and nothing more but again, maybe not.  Ahhh… life in the Land of What If?   (What TF If?)


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 One of you has been poisoned.

While you were sleeping, while you were reading entries and living your "best life", there was something stirring in the depths of Idol Manor. 

Something dangerous.  

Everything is not what you see on the surface, for there are Killers in this castle. 

Cold blooded killers whose weapon of choice is a slow acting poison!! 

if they choose you as their victim, first you will start losing byes  (For the gamers out there, think of them as "extra hearts" or even "health points") once those are gone, the next round you will be dead and have your remains carried out of the competition. 

There is hope though. Whoever "wins" each week (has the most votes) will be given an antidote.  They can take it themselves or give it to someone else. If they guess correctly, then that person is cured. If they don't, then the antidote has no effect. 

Following the completion of each "Week", the contestants remaining in the competition will have the chance to vote on who they believe the killers are. If you guess correctly, that Killer is revealed and eliminated.

Each week, the Killers are given a choice - they can either poison someone, or recruit someone to join their death cult!  Once selected, you are a Killer. If you opt out of the invitation, you will be automatically poisoned. 

This game within the game (mini-game) keeps going until either everyone has been poisoned or the Killers have all been exposed.  (or the Top 5, whichever of those comes first) 

(and yes, once eliminated, regardless of how, of course you are eligible when the wheel decides to let people back into the competition. But come on, that's not as fun as saying "THERE'S MURDER IN THE CASTLE!!!!" ) 

And no, you will not know if you are the one poisoned until, well, you are no longer with us.   Good luck.  Sweet dreams!!!   

The poll is open until tomorrow. therealljidol.dreamwidth.org/1185269.html

Then we will see what else the Wheel of Chaos has in store for us all!! 

The Wheelhouse - Week 1 - Day 10

Jun. 23rd, 2025 07:36 pm
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The poll is currently up. So make sure to get your votes in!   therealljidol.dreamwidth.org/1185269.html


Have any Week 1 entries caught your attention, and kept it? 

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How are you doing?  

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We went to see 28 Years Later yesterday. It was good, but I wish I had known it was the first movie in a new trilogy. It would have made the ending seem less abrupt! 


Vote - Week 1

Jun. 21st, 2025 03:04 pm
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A few words from [personal profile] clauderainsrm:

Welcome to the long dark teatime of your soul, a place that will haunt your nightmares and amuse your hopes and dreams until they realize that we know exactly where they are hiding, but they are safe there - Idol isn’t going to take them out (kill!), at least not for now.

No guarantees on later though. For the moment it’s only your nightmares who are in danger. Because I am the only nightmare in your life. All of the others need to cede ground and acknowledge when they are in the presence of a professional!!!

It’s that time in Week 1 where I say a few words and post a poll.

So - here are the words:
One of you will be randomly selected to receive an email. So be checking your Inbox. If you don’t receive one, then the wheel didn’t pick you. For now. Once you receive it, you will have a couple choices to make. Your game may be decided on what you choose, and without any doubt other people’s games definitely will be impacted by it as well.

Nothing quite like a vague sword hanging over everyone’s head to get things started off right!!!

So now, some other words - Thank you to everyone who has come out. It means a lot to me for you to be here. It’s a small group, but it promises to be a fun one, filled with weeks of great writing! Probably even more “cursing my name” sessions, but also great writing!

We aere off to a solid start with Week 1 and I want to encourage everyone, especially those new here to do the 4 important things over the next few days.

Read. Part of the fun of this whole thing is getting to read other people’s work. Do it!!
Comment on their entries. Everyone loves feedback! You like it. I like it. I think it’s fair to say that no one wants their work to just go out into a vacuum. Give them some love!
Vote for your favorites!!! You can cast votes for as many (or few) entries as you want. Yes, for participants you CAN vote for yourself. Honestly, if you’re not vouching for you, why would someone else? But I know people feel differently on the subject, so I’ll just say you can if you want.
Tell other people to do these things. SPREAD THE WORD! That’s the only way this thing keeps going. We’ve kept Idol going for 19 years with just word of mouth, friends telling friends about it! It’s your turn to be the one to tell people about it! They don’t need to participate to read, comment or vote!

All of this said, there will be (spins wheel) 1 contestant leaving us this week! (the options were 1-3)

The contestant with the fewest votes will be sent to the Dungeon of Chaos to rot for the rest of eternity. (or at least until the wheel gives them another shot)

The poll closes Wednesday June 25th at 9pm ET.

Good luck to everyone!
Note: Fausts_dreams link should be https://fausts-dream.dreamwidth.org/6729.html - my apologies. Obviously this week he is safe as a result of my mistake.

Poll #33276 ’Wheel
This poll is closed.
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 49

Vote For Your Favorites!

adoptedwriter's entry
12 (24.5%)

adore's entry
15 (30.6%)

alycewilson's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

autumn_wind's entry
18 (36.7%)

bleodswean's entry
24 (49.0%)

drippedonpaper's entry
19 (38.8%)

eeyore_grrl's entry
20 (40.8%)

erulissedances's entry
21 (42.9%)

fausts_dream's entry
20 (40.8%)

flipflop_diva's entry
23 (46.9%)

garnigal's entry
10 (20.4%)

gunwithoutmusic's entry
14 (28.6%)

hafnia's entry
20 (40.8%)

halfshellvenus's entry
21 (42.9%)

i0ne's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

impoetry's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

inkstainedfingertips's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

kizzy's entry
14 (28.6%)

krispykritter's entry
17 (34.7%)

legalpad819's entry
15 (30.6%)

marjorica's entry
19 (38.8%)

matsushima's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

muchtooarrogant's entry
15 (30.6%)

murielle's entry
17 (34.7%)

oxymoron67's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

rayaso's entry
23 (46.9%)

roina_arwen's entry
15 (30.6%)

serpentinejacaranda's entry
12 (24.5%)

simplyn2deep's entry
18 (36.7%)

static_abyss's entry
17 (34.7%)

swirlsofpurple's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

talonkarrde's BYE WEEK - Votes Do Not Count
4 (8.2%)

tonithegreat's entry
14 (28.6%)

used_songs's entry
16 (32.7%)

vik_thor's entry
8 (16.3%)

wolfden's entry
19 (38.8%)

xeena's entry
26 (53.1%)

LJ Idol Wheel of Chaos: "The E Train"

Jun. 20th, 2025 06:45 pm
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The E Train
Idol Wheel Of Chaos | Week 1 | 7 x 100 words
Quality

x-x-x-x-x

Queenie
"Can't carry the world, can't bury the world," her mama used to say, but somehow Queenie was still trying.

With her daughter going to prison, there'd be two more mouths to feed. Queenie was headed to Brooklyn, where the food pantries were supposed to be better. She'd never used them before, but a secretary's salary only stretched so far.

Where would her grandbabies sleep? Her own kids already used the sofa. Guess she'd have to put them in her bed, at least for now. Anything but foster care.

Queenie couldn't protect her daughter anymore, but she'd keep her children safe.


Umesh
Umesh wasn't nervous yet. He was on his way to the airport, to fly home and begin the process of choosing a bride.

He wasn't sure he was ready, but he was twenty-eight and he'd already outlasted his mother's patience. He'd hoped he might meet someone on his own, but it hadn't happened. And his parents wanted him to marry a traditional girl, even though Umesh was a modern man.

He wanted someone pretty and accomplished, but who knew what women his mother had selected? Would the beautiful Anjali be among them?

Umesh shivered. No, he wasn't nervous at all.


Anthony
Quit yer bellyachin', he thought, his father's voice still in his head after all these years. So what if he hated his job? The pay was good. Not everyone got to live their dream. His dream was drinking beer and watching baseball, so no chance of making a living there.

If he had a car, he wouldn't have to ride this goddamn train. And if you was a surgeon, you wouldn't be going to Mrs. Sepka's to fix her toilet.

But there was a game on tonight, and Billy was coming over with a six-pack. Suddenly, things were looking up.


Lainie
It was just after eight o'clock, but Lainie was already drunk. She sat in the back left corner, her usual spot, and watched the other passengers' eyes slide past her. She used to be just like them.

Losing John had destroyed her. Five months she'd known it was coming, but that hadn't prepared her for the crushing grief that followed. Two years later now, she didn't want to die, but she couldn't figure out how to live.

Better to numb the pain and hope it would someday leave her.

Someday, she thought.

But today would not be when that happened.


Isabella
Isabella fingered the acceptance letter inside her purse. Medical school! It was everything she'd ever wanted.

She knew she had a hard road ahead of her. The studying would be intense, and then the years of internship and residency, and after that she still had to pass the boards. But it'll be worth it.

She was dressed in her most businesslike clothes now, on the way to interview for a loan. She hoped she looked grown-up, instead of like a kid going with her grandmother to the ballet.

And Illinois… She'd never been. But she couldn't wait to get started.


Teo
Abuela smelled like cinnamon, the most delicious smell there was. Teo's stomach growled as he thought about churros, but those were a Saturday treat, so he played with his toy car instead.

Down his leg and over the back of the empty seat in front of him it went. He imagined being a race-car driver, though "pirate" and Futbolista were still his favorites.

Abuela touched his cheek and offered him a slice of mango. "Tres paradas," she said. Teo could count to tres.

He watched treetops go by as the train rushed past. This is the world the birds see…


Yuri
Yuri's duffel bag held everything he could carry.

He'd hoped for acceptance, but he hadn't been surprised. There was no room in his parents' culture for boys like him.

"When did this happen?" his mother had asked, but Yuri always knew. He was just tired of hiding, and Andrei's smile had made him brave. Even if his parents never forgave him, he was still running to something instead of away from it. Andrei's house was just a few miles down the track, now.

Down below, sunlight glinted off car windows, a stream of stars pointing the way toward Yuri's future.


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If you enjoyed this story, please vote for it along with any other favorites here

Quality - LJ Idol, Week One

Jun. 20th, 2025 05:09 pm
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 I'm finally happy with what I wanted to write, so it's posted. Here's your link, and I'd love it if you read it, and love it even more if you enjoy it enough to vote for me. 

https://erulissedances.dreamwidth.org/1118554.html

I'm not sure how long I'll be able to do Idol this time, as I had mentioned in my blog earlier, but I'm going to try my damndest to keep in the mix for as long as possible. I love writing to a theme. It always makes me think outside the box. 

- Erulisse (one L)

LJ Idol Week One - Quality

Jun. 20th, 2025 04:40 pm
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QUALITY

Erulisse (one L) - LJ Idol 6/20/25

 

"We are people of QUALITY," Grandmother said through her high-lifted nose and piercingly direct eyes. "A person of QUALITY never makes assumptions about another. We look carefully at everything about that person, and base our judgment of them upon that examination. For instance, Mistress Bedvidere, who thinks she is "all that," and who supposedly has been invited to have tea with the King, cannot put a proper dinner party together. She doesn’t even own enough place settings for a full table, and …  AND, her houseman is also employed as her groom."

 

My ears had shut down at the first uttering of the word "QUALITY". I stole a quick glance towards the dial of the ponderous Grandfather clock in the corner. *Sigh* Less than five minutes had passed between my last glance and this one. I continued to sit with well-mannered docility, ankles crossed, feet positioned slightly beneath me, and my hands in my lap. My demure posture only acted as camouflage for the rebellious teenaged girl that I was, and I was angry.

 

I felt as though I had been abandoned. I thought I should be with my parents, on board a ship heading to India. Pater had been awarded a governmental position in Mumbai, and Mater, of course, was accompanying him. They both were reluctant to bring me along at this time. My Mother's exact words were, “Your health has always been fragile, and we simply cannot protect you from all of the various diseases that run rampant among the unwashed pagans. No, you will stay with your Grandmother, here in England. If we can, we might summon you later." After a bit of correspondence, I was escorted to my Grandmother’s country estate to stay with her until my parents returned. Since letters between India and England came by sea and it was a dreadfully long distance, I expected to hear from my parents only once or twice a year at best.  

 

I rather liked Grandmamma (although I would NEVER dare to call her that). She had been a highly popular debutante in her day and had married well. Her husband had the poor taste to become lunch for the lion he was hunting, but since they were childless, the lion's hunger left her solely in charge of both the household and Grandpapa's business.

 

“A woman in charge of a business?”, you might ask. "It really isn't done in houses of QUALITY, after all." I can hear her voice stating the words as fact, as incontrovertible as the gospel that Reverend Banner spouted every Sunday in our old, rather drafty church. But Grandmama practiced specific blindness in some aspects of her life, and running the business was one of those areas.

 

Grandpapa's business was distilling liquor. Specifically, a highly regarded limited batch brewery for fine, Scotch whiskey. He wasn't Scottish, but his father (my Great Grandfather) had married a Highlands lass who had borne him two children before succumbing to our cold winters and wet summers. My Great Grandfather’s son, my Grandpapa, inherited the distillery. He had three children, and his middle child was my mother, Fiona. The eldest son, Cormac had died in a far-off land defending King and Country, and the younger brother Angus was simply unsuited for the pursuit of business. He was an artist with his head in the clouds. An accounts ledger was a mere curiosity to him.

 

My Grandmother was no fool. She saw the faults in her children (she was not shy about pointing them out to each child as well). In her mind, everything came down to "QUALITY", (which in her mouth was always capitalized). A gentleman or a lady must be of good QUALITY. Any acquaintance at the schoolyard must be of QUALITY. Most people in our area viewed her as formidable and they made no comment about her stepping into the distillery business when her husband died.

 

By the time I hit my majority, I was almost friendless, thanks to Grandmama. I had several dozen acquaintances through school and church, but no true friends. Grandmama made sure I understood QUALITY, however. She made sure that I radiated QUALITY from every pore. If the boys didn’t rally around me, vying for my attention, they had no QUALITY. If the girls, gathered at the far end of the school grounds, always scattered into various directions when I appeared, they were blind to my QUALITY. I stiffened my already ramrod-straight back a bit more when things like this occurred, but buried deep inside me, hidden from everyone, was a desire I held secret. More than anything else, I wanted to be accepted for me.

 

It was approaching the time for my “Introduction to Society” as Grandmother said in ponderous tones. I dreaded “the Season”. I had no desire to be "introduced" to marriageable men whose only positive aspect was their bank balance. I loathed “Society” with everything that I had. But, dresses had been made and packed, and the London house had been cleaned from top to bottom, waiting for us to arrive and begin the battle.

 

The “battle”? Such was my perception. I was going to be introduced to people who were of the proper QUALITY to merit being joined to the granddaughter of a renowned brewer; and I was expected to come out of the Season with a proper marriage proposal that would enrich our family’s bank accounts and push me up a rung or two in societal perceived QUALITY.

 

Of course, a brewer is middle class – working class in some cases. Beer isn’t as upper class as wine. But Grandmama’s Scotch Whiskey was highly prized and even (or so the whispers went) preferred by His Majesty! (Of course, we had no proof of that, but the mere whisper of Royal patronage was enough to double our sales from the prior year.) Grandmama exploited that Royal link and built the brand name, while also keeping a tight eye on the brewery itself to keep that QUALITY intact. She might have made a miserable Grandmother – at least, she wasn’t the doting, kind, woman who would provide hugs and dry tears while cleaning scraped knees. She was, however, an outstanding businesswoman, and obtaining Royal Patronage would be an excellent push for the brewery’s fame and fortunes.

 

The household moved to London for “The Season”. Dresses were made, calling cards were printed, and we dove into the myriad of events with both feet. Every day was filled with going here or there to be seen with the “proper” people of  QUALITY. I drank countless cups of weak tea and chatted with brainless girls who only hoped for a good match to assure their future. My evenings were spent dancing on the ballroom floors of various socialites, minor Royalty or well-known sponsors. The men, actually boys in most instances, knew how to ask for a dance, and even knew the steps of the dance, but if they understood commerce or what makes a Quality Scotch Whiskey, they didn’t let me know.

 

Grandmother had done her research, however. There were several good breweries with eligible single young men who had received Royal Warrants in the past. A Royal Warrant, of course, was physical proof of QUALITY. Our own brewery had been awarded several Royal Warrants in the past forty years. A Royal Warrant was an important marketing asset and almost guaranteed a larger sales total at the end of the year. Ladies of QUALITY may not concern themselves with commerce, but in our family, it was the women or nothing. The men were off doing manly things – fighting in wars or expanding the Empire. The women ran everything from behind the figurehead of the Warehouse Manager.

 

I was introduced to several suitable young men who would be assets to the brewery, and Grandmother was certain to point each one out to me on our morning strolls, and again when we would see them at the various dances and balls in houses of undisputed QUALITY. Grandmother was in her element, an acknowledged asset to the finances of any household whose fortunes may have seen better days. I was told which young men to try to meet, and at breakfast the next morning, Grandmother would dissect my performance of the prior night.

 

It was during one of these examinations of what I had done right and what I had not, that our butler came in with a calling card. Beautifully printed, it said merely “John Begg”. My Grandmother nodded to show him in and ordered tea immediately. When Mr. Begg entered the drawing room, my heart skipped a beat. I had noticed him at one or two of the Season’s balls. He was well built and a good dancer. We hadn’t spent any real time together, but he seemed to always be in my general vicinity. We spent a lovely afternoon in the drawing room and wandering through the gardens in the courtyard area. There was no subject matter he could not discuss thoroughly, and his interests mirrored my own in many ways. When he asked my permission to call upon me again, I quickly said “Yes”.

 

That “Yes” grew into more outings and a trip to view his brewery later in the year. Even Grandmama was impressed with the Royal Warrant so prominently displayed in their front foyer. John and I, meanwhile, had an opportunity to learn about each other and, by the end of the year, he had requested my hand in marriage.

 

So, that’s how I married a Scotsman who was involved in the “family” business. Our brewery worked hard to keep its’ Royal Warrant, and indeed, it still has that warrant today. John and I had five children together, some of whom joined the business either at the John Begg distillery, or at Grandmother’s original distillery in England.

 

Eventually, as must happen, Grandmother died. My parents were long gone – they had died in India from a tropical disease no more than six years after they had left England. However, I am surrounded by children and grandchildren, and the John Begg distillery has never missed being awarded a Royal Warrant every year of operation. Now THAT’S QUALITY!

 

A Commemorative Event

Jun. 20th, 2025 02:31 pm
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LJI Week 1: Quality
June 15 marked the ten year anniversary of working for my current employer. This was both gratifying and slightly amusing to me because of a comment made by one of my former coworkers when I left my previous job.

"An accessibility job for a large mainstream company?" they reportedly scoffed. "That'll probably only last a year, if that long."

Hello, still here!

Oh, don't get me wrong, it's definitely been a bumpy ride at times. Our team has always been that troublesome puzzle piece that company leadership wasn't quite sure where or how to slot into their operations. It was a bit like being part of a jigsaw puzzle where the assembler could change a piece's location, but also its size, and shape, and name, and overall purpose. And, don't let the default past tense of storytelling fool you, they're still at it!

The disadvantages to being that puzzle piece are obvious, but believe it or not, there were advantages too. For example, it meant I did the routine stuff like reviewing content to identify accessibility issues, but also worked with developers to design feature enhancements so that the content was easier to understand and navigate. Myself and other colleagues were encouraged to share our knowledge by responding to calls for papers at national conferences, and if we were accepted, got to travel to the conference and present are findings. Without a doubt though, customer research was one of the most interesting activities I got to participate in.

Of course, ten years ago, I didn't know anything about research or usability studies seeking customer feedback. When I was asked to help out with our first study, I sorta figured, you put together a prototype, showed it to the customer, let them play with it for a bit, and then asked a few questions. Easy-peasy! Yeah, not so much.

  • What are the research questions your study is trying to answer?

  • What prototypes or study materials will be shown to each participant?

  • Is there enough time to prepare the prototypes/study materials before the study is scheduled to begin?

  • Will participants need to sign nondisclosure agreements in order to view the prototypes/study materials, and has legal approved the language for those agreements?

  • Do you plan to compensate participants? If so, how much will each participant receive? Have you secured funding for the compensations, and if so, for how many participants?

  • Where will the study sessions take place, and is there a fee to use that space?

  • How much time will be allotted for each session?

  • How do you plan to recruit participants for the study?

  • Will any study participants be less than 18 years of age? If so, have you written a parent/guardian consent form? Has legal approved the consent form language?


You know that old Star Trek joke about the different management styles of captain Kirk verses Captain Picard? With Kirk, the strategy with a planet was beam down and poke any aliens with a stick, and if it was another ship, "Fire phasers!" Picard's strategy, no matter what was in the offing? "Lets hold a meeting."

Yup, you guessed it, I was on Picard's ship. So many meetings!

If you're reading the list of logistics above and thinking to yourself, "Dude, where's the fun?" I don't blame you. The answer was, in the beginning, I didn't have to worry about most of that stuff. I got to bounce potential research questions around with other team members, and then, once we had nailed down what we were trying to discover, I helped write the research protocol. The protocol was important because when you're conducting a usability study seeking feedback, the golden rule you're supposed to follow is to not bias the participants. The prototypes or study materials should be evaluated the same way by every participant, and one of the ways to ensure that consistency was to write a script that would be read in every session.

Now, what about the prototypes or study materials? Should you show those to participants in the same order every time as well? If you're like me and said, "Yes," I regret to inform you that you're wrong.

Think about it this way. You're participating in a research study lasting an hour and a half and looking at three different prototypes for the researchers. By the time you reach the third prototype, the likelihood is that you're going to be getting tired and imagining how nice it will be when the session's over and they stop asking you questions. If I always presented the prototypes in the same order, prototype number three would probably get a pretty raw deal. So, as researchers you counterbalance or change the order of items being evaluated.

Yes, it was a lot to keep track of, and it did get just a bit tedious reading the same script to six or eight participants every day during the study, but the payoff was being able to meet and speak with people with no filters in-between you and their opinions. The hard part, if you can believe it in this age of social media where people seem compelled to find fault with every little thing, was convincing participants to answer honestly and in depth. "We want to know what you like and what you don't like about each prototype, and you won't hurt our feelings in any way by telling us what you think about them."

There were typically three or four of us in the room with a study participant, one person reading the script and asking questions, and the others observing reactions and taking notes. We encouraged participants to "talk through" their experience while exploring a prototype, and I imagine they sometimes may have felt as though they were under a microscope. If they had a pensive expression or made an unhappy noise, one of us would invariably say, "Could you please share with us what you're thinking right now?"

It was time consuming, and exhausting, and while a study was going on, we'd barely had time to grab a meal in-between sessions. Is it weird if I say I miss the experience?

The last study I participated in was during the summer of 2022 at a conference in New Orleans, just after the July 4th holiday. We all wore masks during each session because COVID was very much still a thing. While venturing out for a late dinner one evening, a coworker accidently led me into a hole in a New Orleans sidewalk. Before the conference was over, we had to push the abort button and head home because everyone on the research team, except me, caught COVID. And finally, when I did arrive home, I decided to self-quarantine in a hotel for a few days, just in case I might still be a carrier of the dreaded virus.

Yeah, even with all of that, I still miss conducting research studies.

Dan

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